Due to some personal reasons, i have decided to shift my blog.

Yes… promised to update my entry….yep now I gonna fulfill my promise.

Before the PW issue took place, something had already ignited my ‘buaysong’-ness about HER. Recently mentioned in dunno which entry, I talked about a little confrontation between 2 of my class people. The content of their confrontation is not important. And I dun even noe what really happened la. But some smart alec in my class wrote in his blog, claiming that SHE, me and that guy who’s concerned in that confrontation to be in a gang together [or something similar to that]. But it is to my utmost regret that I am not in any gang.

SHE was afraid, because SHE was afraid that SHE will invite the class’ unhappiness or dunno wat. I dunno. But whatever happens, I won’t take sides with anybody because I am not the first parties who were involved and it would be unfair to them, should I take sides.

The story goes…
And it was the second day after the confrontation took place. SHE called me a few times but I din pick up my phone. Finally being pestered and harassed by her continuous phone calls, and I was like pulling my hair and cursing HER, I msged her and asked her if SHE wanted to talk online or through SMS. SHE said online so I went online. SHE said some rubbish, expressing her fear, and said that SHE will pretend nothing had happened and continue talking to the two of them involved in the confrontation, like SHE always do. Then SHE said that another person in the class [who happens to be HER close fren in class] told her about the smart alec’s blog, claiming HER, me and the guy involved in confrontation were in 1 gang. It is a fact that 3 of us and another classmate went to Kbox to sing after promos, that is because one of them told me that a lot of people were going and I was in a way cheated to go la. But nevermind I had quite an enjoyable time there cos I love singing in nature.

Back to the smart alec’s blog….SHE told me that SHE is going to ask the smart alec to remove HER name on his blog, and I told HER to help me too, since I was in a way dragged in la. Guess wat?? Being very NICE and being such a TRUE fren [omg], SHE said: “No. This…I am in no position to help u…” OK lor in no position to help me, I have to help myself then. I told HER that I will clear up the whole thing in front of the whole class on wed [which is the next schoolday after a long break]. Guess wat again?? SHE said that if I am going to clear up in front of the class, SHE will go together wif me. What rubbish is this?? If SHE is reluctant to help me, why should I help u?? Now this is not selfish or what, but I think SHE is just another fair-weather person [not even fren].

Through this incident, i think it is really difficult to find a fren, even a common fren is not easy to find. I ask myself, ‘Can human ever really have true frens??’

And oh yes I cannot help reaffirming my stand. This is a blog. Anybody can read it. I am not afraid of anything BECAUSE I dun think I am wrong anywhere. And I am open for confrontation, anytime anywhere, but preferably in school.

Friendship is all about trust. Many of us know that but how many of us really do that? All of us would hope that people would trust us but they themselves do otherwise. Friendship is like taking two hands to clap, it is mutual.

There is always a BUT in everything.

2 days before, my group wanted to meet for OP but somehow or another, I din receive the message (the message was claimed to be sent the night before the day of the meeting). The next day, I received a message from one of the group people asking me whether I would go for the meeting. I asked HER got meeting meh SHE said yes and forwarded me the message that was supposed to be sent to everybody in the group. Then SHE said SHE messaged the guy who sent the message to call for meeting and received no reply. Using common sense I told HER that I think the meeting should be cancelled already and we ended the conversation with the message SHE sent “I also think so.”

Ok then I tot there was no meeting on that day. But to my horror there was a meeting on that day. As a group member, the least that SHE could have done is to inform me of the meeting. Who knows SHE could have back-stabbed me in front of the other group members. I don’t know.

Now when I see HER, I feel very reluctant to talk to HER. It’s not about childishness or anything but it’s a matter of principle. It really makes me see who is good and who is not. I got the feeling that I have been ‘betrayed’.

Well actually I can tell the class dun like HER. SHE wasn’t my clique after the 2nd intake and she was ‘best frens’ with another 2 of my classmates. But after 3 or 4 months, they somehow drifted away and she came to claim to be my wat?? best fren cum cousin. My foot! Do u think I am so easily taken in by u?? Is this how one would treat HER best fren cum cousin? Please dun fool me I am already 17+ years old, I’ve seen many things, many kinds of people. So dun come bluff me, dun waste my time.

The fact that I post this in my blog, I am not afraid of HER reading it. It’s a blog, it’s meant to be read anyway. Even if u want a confrontation, so be it, I am not in the least afraid. Why should I be afraid if I have done no wrong??

It’s wise to make frens with the people whom u trust and those who trust u. Even if u claim to be my ‘best fren cum cousin’, it’s useless. It’s one-sided. People won’t feel the same to u. I believe there is nothing else to talk about after OP is over. 13th of November, I’m pinning for this day.

This is oni one of the incidents that strained the already-bad relationship. Shall update my entry soon. It will be much longer than this. Promise....

Oh man my group consists of such nice people. I am so FORTUNATE to have them in my group. AS if.....HAHA. Yey man OP's finally finishing just can't hide my happiness.

PW SUX especially when u have not enough things to say and some people just hold on to their part. For what? Somebody

Just received my results today…tot I had improved but to my horror my CT said those who had 2H2 passes are extremely dangerous….agree to a certain extent. But it was already improvement for me since I failed 4 subjects during mid year and I oni failed one now. Anyway I will work hard for next year… and one of my dreams for next year is to get into Honors Roll….haha impossible la it’s just one of a faraway dream that cannot be fulfilled but nevertheless it’s good to have a goal…nevermind realistic onot.

Next I find something inspirational about the principal’s talk. He mentioned that we have to plan tomorrow today. Wonder where he got this quote from but I think it’s making a lot of sense. It sounds damn chim. Anyway just work hard la.

Mug on, press on, rock on.

Something bad has happened in my class. To be honest I know nothing about this whole episode. And I don't have any part to play in this. I had hope to clear this up in front of the class [or at least in front of the people who got involved] but people could read this as i am taking sides.

SO i decided to clear in my blog

I AM NOT IN ANY GANG OR PARTY OR ANYTHING

I HAVE NO IDEA WHY I GOT INVOLVED BUT ACTUALLY I KNOW NOTHING

That's all i have to say